Release Day Review: M4M by Rick R. Reed
VGL Male Seeks Same
Poor Ethan Schwartz. At forty-two, he’s alone, his bed is empty, and his HDTV is overworked. He’s tried bars and other places where gay men are supposed to find each other, but it never works out. Maybe he should get a cat?
But his life is about to change…
Poor Ethan. He’s received the most shocking news a gay man can get—he’s HIV positive. Until today his life was perfect, with a job he loves and Brian, who could be “the one.” The one to complete him and fill his lonely life with laughter, hot sex, and romance.
But Ethan’s in for another shock. Could Brian have infected him?
Alone again, Ethan wonders if life is worth living, even with a cat. When an old nemesis sends a Facebook friend request, Ethan is suspicious but intrigued. It seems this old acquaintance has turned his life around, and the changes might hold the key to Ethan getting a new lease on life… and love.
He was good with musing...Ethan was lonely and wanted company.
A dating site.....that was something from this time....Ethan in his early forties thinks of himself as common, plain, nothing special.
Maybe a makeover would help. Not in real but online....
And so he meets Brian and they have a click....even a real life click...
Then Ethan went to the doctor to get the news HIV and his world is tumbling down...
Blaming Brain for 'things' he wants to end his relationship. Trying to coop with his world upside down he starts to write a blog. Just for himself....to write the whole misery down....
Life takes a better turn for him and there is love again and happiness....and life.....
The journey starts in 2008 then goes further in 2009 and the last part in 2017.
I can't go into the story without spoiling so I wont.
To look in Ethan's head was an experience. He was real....sometimes balanced and sometimes so not, mature and immature. He had a lot of inner struggles and questions about life and why things are as they are.
He is a sweet man with a sweet mind. Something his thoughts take a run but he always goes back to center himself. When life takes him hard by the balls you could feel the hurt and the reality.
I cried with him because that was the only thing I could do.
It feels he has a compact and simple life and you could think he has. Because there are no big heroic things, before you there is an ordinary man with an at first eye ordinary life. But it grabbed me by my heart because for me this was a story about an (extra)ordinary man with an extraordinary journey.
The way it was written was thoughtful, in a considered ambience, nothing excessive.
I loved this story even with a few occasions where I missed the source of it. But the content was the journey itself, and that was excellent done, so it is forgiven!
Kindly received an ARC through Divine Magazine given by Dreamspinner Press