Master Captain Theodore Gourdin has always loved the ocean. But his devotion to maritime life left little possibility for a long-term relationship.
After two failed marriages and numerous unsuccessful relationships, Theo gave up on finding the person who completed him and decided the sea was his soul mate. When offered the opportunity to captain the newly launched megayacht Eternity, Theo jumped at the chance. With Eternity’s maiden voyage looming, Theo focused all his energies on hiring his crew and readying his ship. The last thing he expected was to finally lose his heart in the process.
After twelve years at sea, First Officer Heath Rawlins was restless and in need of a change. A gay seaman’s life could be a lonely one, but to Heath the positives far outweighed the negatives. With excellent recommendations and an impressive résumé, he was quickly offered a position on the private megayacht Eternity. Heath’s heart skipped several beats when he finally met the ship’s captain. He was handsome and charming. And… familiar? Had they met somewhere before? Highly unlikely. But as smitten as Heath was with the gorgeous captain, everything inside him screamed, Abandon ship! Rough seas ahead!
Scotty Cade here. First off I’d like to thank Anders and everyone over at Divine Magazine for giving me the opportunity to be with you again. Your support means the world to me and please know I never take it for granted.
“Only Forever” is a book of which I am so very proud. Yeah okay, I’m proud of all my books. They are all, as is this one, a part of me. But this story in particular addresses a subject matter in which I’ve always believed. Before I get started, let me ask you a question. Have you ever met a stranger for the first time and without hesitation felt like you already knew that person? That maybe you had met before? Or felt an instant connection? And it doesn’t have to be a romantic connection, although it could have been? It could just be a feeling.
I’m fairly sure for most of us, the answer will be yes.
But most of us simply shake it off as maybe said person just reminds us of someone else or we convince ourselves that maybe we have met casually and just don’t recall.
Well…I personally believe if the connection is a strong one you probably have met that person before—just maybe not in this lifetime??? And…that my friend is what this book is all about.
I’m sure this isn’t going to come as a big surprise because most of you who read my work already know I’m a big ole romantic at heart, but throw me a crumb and let’s just say for conversation sake you did reconnect with someone you had met in another place or time? As I mentioned before, most of us just brush it off and go on with our lives. But what happens when you can’t let go of it? When the attraction or connection is so strong, and although it makes no sense, you just can’t get it out of your mind? No matter how hard you try. And little bits a pieces of a past slowly come back to jog your memory. Isn’t that called déjà vu. Something jogging your memory but not quite knowing why? Just think about it.
On a side note, this has happened to me three times in my life. Once in a romantic way and the others very strong kinships. I know in my heart I’ve known these people at some point in my journey and I hope I will connect with them again when my time here is over.
The only other thing I’m gonna say is this entire book takes place in just over two weeks. I predict one thing for sure. The naysayers will label this as “Instalove.” “The instalove in this book ruined it for me,” “I hate instalove.” Blah Blah Blah. And its already starting with the first initial few reviews. But is it really insta-love or a reunion when you’re certain you known this person forever? You’ve attracted to them. Sure. But past that. You feel like you’ve loved this person before and will find them again and again no matter what?
So now it’s time for you to make up your own mind. If you’ve had an experience like the one I’ve mentioned above, tell me about in the form of a comment. If you do, you will be entered into a drawing to win any book from my backlist.
Now here’s an excerpt. Enjoy!
At six thirty on the dot, Heath walked into Grill 66 & Bar, standing so upright he was sure his five-foot-nine-inch frame looked at least six feet tall. He was a little nervous and a bit jittery, but he felt very alive. He approached the hostess stand and smiled.
The hostess looked up and did a double take. She quickly smoothed the front of her dress, brushed her hair behind her ear, and batted her eyelashes a few times.
Most of his life, girls had been coming on to him—as a little boy, as a teenager, and especially after he joined Texas A&M and was in his uniform. He smiled when he thought of his dear mother’s teasing words: “Now you be sweet, Heath. Your good looks are a curse, I know. But it’s something you’ll have to live with for the rest of your life.”
He wanted to tell the hostess to save it. That he wasn’t buying what she was selling, but he simply smiled back. “Hi. I’m meeting Captain… uh, Gourdin, maybe… for dinner at six thirty. Has he been seated yet?”
The hostess checked her computer, looked up, and tilted her head slightly. “Can you spell that?”
Heath spelled the last name, and she nodded. “Oh, there he is. As a matter of fact, he has.”
She picked up a menu and gazed at him again, all the while playing with a little locket hanging on a chain around her neck. After staring for a few short moments, she finally tilted her head again and smiled. “Right this way.”
Heath wanted to roll his eyes, but he only nodded and said, “Thank you.”
On the way to the table, she sashayed and worked her six-inch heels like she was a runway model, and he couldn’t help but smile. She couldn’t be a day over twenty-two, and she was as obvious as a sunrise. But he had to give it to her. She was making a great effort.
When she rounded the corner, there was only one man sitting alone in a far-off corner of the room at a table for two. Heath stopped dead in his tracks and swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat. Even from a distance, Heath had the weirdest sense that he and the captain had met somewhere before. Heath stared at the incredibly good-looking man who was Theodore Gourdin. He looked to be in his midforties, with blond hair, sort of long on the top and short on the sides.
When the hostess got to the table and Heath wasn’t right behind her, she looked back in surprise. Heath willed his feet to move again, and when he reached the table, Captain Gourdin looked up from his menu and smiled, his blue eyes sparkling like sapphires. For a second, Heath wondered if a person could give themselves CPR because he felt like his heart was about to stop. An image of him lying flat on the floor, punching his own chest to get his heart beating again, came to mind. But luckily it hadn’t come to that. The organ kept on pumping without fail, and he was still alive.
Captain Gourdin stood slowly, eyed Heath curiously for a long moment, and then held out his hand. The man was at least six three, maybe six four. And from what Heath could tell, he was lean and fit, but not overly built. To top it off, Heath hadn’t needed to spend so long in front of the mirror. Captain Gourdin’s outfit was the mirror image of his own.
Heath accepted the outstretched hand, and when their palms met, Heath felt a rush of something flow though him, and his heart threatened to stop beating yet again. What the fuck?
The Captain was still eyeing him curiously, but his expression turned into a broad smile as they shook. “Nice outfit,” the captain said.
Heath struggled to regain his composure. “Right back atcha,” he said nervously.
“I sure hope you’re First Officer Rawlins, or I’m in deep shit.”
Heath smiled. “Pleased to meet you, Captain….” His words drifted off as he struggled to say the captain’s last name. It was spelled Gourdin, but he had no idea how was it pronounced. He finally took a stab and pronounced it as Gordin. “And forgive me. I’m sure I’m mispronouncing your name.”
The captain smiled. “You are.”
Damn. I should have stuck with “Captain.”
“But you’re not the first by any stretch. It’s pronounced Ga-don. But please, call me Theo.”
Heath smiled with relief. “Then call me Heath.”
The hostess cleared her throat. Neither of them was paying her any mind, and she wasn’t having any part of that. She stood, posed with one leg slightly in front of the other, head tilted, and appeared to be waiting for one or both of them to give her a little attention. But when neither stepped up to the plate, she huffed and said, “Enjoy your dinner, gentlemen,” and then strutted off.
Both men sat, each still smiling at the other.
“We look like twins,” Theo said.
Heath shook his head. “At least we know neither of us has designer taste.”
Theo nodded. “You got that right. But for me this is about it. It’s this or my uniform.”
“Same,” Heath admitted. “And I spent an hour trying to decide what to wear. It’s been a long time since I had an interview.”
“I know the feeling. Hey, how was your trip?” Theo asked casually, as if they were old friends, but still eyeing him curiously.
“It’s a good thing I had my phone,” Heath replied with a chuckle. “Funny, I can navigate a merchant ship across the oceans of the world and not get lost, but get me on the road and ask me to find a hotel, and I’m out of my element.”
Review by Debbie Attenborough
Theo and Heath both have but one first and only love: The Sea. Theo hires Heath to be his second in command on board a brand spanking new megayacht. Both men have a powerful, instant and strangely familiar reaction to each other. But Theo will be in a position of power over Heath, and any approach would be borderline harassment. But if Heath makes the first moves, all bets are off. Can they make it work?
I don’t usually read the authors notes at the beginning of a book, but I did for Scotty Cade’s last book and it made a big difference to how I saw that book, so I read the notes here. And while this book doesn’t have the intense emotional impact Losing Faith did, it has an altogether different impact.
I wrote a review for a book a while ago, and I steal a line from that review:-
There comes along, once in a while, a book that gives you the warm and fuzzies for days, days I tell ya!
Because even though this is a case of instalove ( reincarnation aside) and I don’t much usually care for those. Because even though the book takes place over just two weeks. Because it has no real drama, no danger, no break up and make up. Because the way the reincarnation manifests itself. Because it’s on the very clean side of my male male preferences.
Because of all these things, or inspire of them….
I loved this book!!!
Theo and Heath are perfect for each other, even without that past life bleeding through. Their reaction to each other is deep and powerful, and I don’t just mean in a sexual way, it’s their friendship and camaraderie too.
I loved the prologue and epilogue. They made me cry!
For that warm and fussy feeling, for a lovely story, beautifully told it can only get…. 5 stars
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Meet Scotty Cade
Scotty Cade left Corporate America and twenty-five years of Marketing and Public Relations behind to buy an Inn & Restaurant on the island of Martha’s Vineyard with his partner of over twenty years. He started writing stories as soon as he could read, but just five years ago for publication. When not at the Inn, you can find him on the bow of his boat writing gay romance novels with his Shetland sheepdog Mavis at his side. Being from the south and a lover of commitment and fidelity, all of his characters find their way to long healthy relationships, however long it takes them to get there. He believes that in the end, the boy should always get the boy.
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